Saturday, April 09, 2005

hEy ya pEeps juz wana apologise lonG tyM diN bLog...well bz werkin n studying now...and havin pr0bs wif ma love life...well gtg rushin to meet sum1 naw..


aLyssA kicked at 4/09/2005 02:47:00 PM

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Monday, July 05, 2004

hey ya...ahaha...natink beta ta do ar...well aniwaes...dat sun..rite.. i den remembered dat i nd ta buy sumtin den dat tym i went ta da shop and wen i reached thr..i saw a grp of dos typical guys sweatin after playing soccer...i juz ignored dem lar...but den i herd sum1 call out "aini"..i juz ignored them n den went in ta buy another top up card...yeah i noe...i noe..whudever...well...den rite...wen i went out dey were waitin fer mi at the door...i saw ma ex-classmate...khirman lar..den it goes loike this..

he saw me goin out n den said.."aini"...
i said "hi"
den his fwens al said "aini...hi...hey...hi..."
i dunno dem but i juz said hi..den khirman asked..."masih ingat tak?"
i said of coz lar..."khirman kan?"
den khirman nodded...
den his fwen ask masih ingat tak...i said nopez...den he said his name but i cudnt catch it...den dey al said bye...keep on sayin bye lar...den da fwen hu intro himself said...aini leh berkenalan tak...den i juz kept quiet...den khirman said tak...tak...tak moh...jangan aini...jangan...den de fwen look at him n said asal?den i dunno...gtg...reali2 gtg...bye..haha...

aLyssA kicked at 7/05/2004 10:40:00 AM

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...birthday blush...

..happy b'dae ta me..hapi b'dae ta me...hapi b'dae ta mi...i'm finally sweet sixteen...muahaha...well..i ma sowie for the late entry...ma b'dae was on da 1st of july...well..it was a great b'dae...thanks to ma fwens..tis are the ppl i wana thank..

weixin,meiqin wah eng aiya the ex 2a1(2003) ppl..vimal,yilian,mark,nadine,alrite dos peeps in 4a1 lar...katherine a4..mQ's boifwen..ma classmates..4a3..and mani more to sae..but ma fingers to tired to type yar..well u ppl noe hu u r..guys thanks for the b'dae gifts..i was sooo touched..

dat day rite..on ma b'dae..i got 51 bucks,a starhub top up card a wallet,fwens spendin tym wif me..a chemistry remedial..(thanks ar mr ramesh!)..dat mornin wen i came ta skool,it rained..HE told me dat heaven's crying fer me...tears of joys HE said...theY are hapi dat i'm now all 'grown up'...not a lil' gerl...not yet a woman..muahaha...awww...soooo touchin...ridiculous rite?!aniwaes...thruout de whole day,ppl kept wishing me hapi b'dae..hmmm...alll ma fwens above lar ar...den rashid..ben..erm...alar...oso dos peeps whom i dunno oso wish fer me..den fadzriddin wished me hapi b'dae on friday..whoa...actuali so much happened la tis past 5 days..oh yeah some teachers wished me tooo...loike ms mag foo...ahahaha..den dat day rite..k* offered ta buy fer mi da c.....u dirty-minded peeps out there noe what i mean lar ar..ahahaha...coz laR...it's juz a joke!lolz...den rite durin chemistry lesson rite some boys sittin at the back sang me a birthday song...de moment mr ramesh stepped out da music rm...den tuti jacq n jannah rite feigned dat dey forgot ma b'dae but surprises me after skool wif a starhub top-up card...gosh ppl...thaNKS...tis means a lotz fer mi..u ppl troubling yaself celebratin ma b'dae...aniwaes dat sat wenna out until late in the mornin...muahaha...i spent tym wif wx until ard 9:30 plus2..at nite...den spent tym with HIM...loz nuff said lar ar...aniwaes...gtg adios...

aLyssA kicked at 7/05/2004 09:57:00 AM

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...birthday blush...

..happy b'dae ta me..hapi b'dae ta me...hapi b'dae ta mi...i'm finally sweet sixteen...muahaha...well..i ma sowie for the late entry...ma b'dae was on da 1st of july...well..it was a great b'dae...thanks to ma fwens..tis are the ppl i wana thank..

weixin,meiqin wah eng aiya the ex 2a1(2003) ppl..vimal,yilian,mark,nadine,alrite dos peeps in 4a1 lar...katherine a4..mQ's boifwen..ma classmates..4a3..and mani more to sae..but ma fingers to tired to type yar..well u ppl noe hu u r..guys thanks for the b'dae gifts..i was sooo touched..

dat day rite..on ma b'dae..i got 51 bucks,a starhub top up card a wallet,fwens spendin tym wif me..a chemistry remedial..(thanks ar mr ramesh!)..dat mornin wen i came ta skool,it rained..HE told me dat heaven's crying fer me...tears of joys HE said...theY are hapi dat i'm now all 'grown up'...not a lil' gerl...not yet a woman..muahaha...awww...soooo touchin...ridiculous rite?!aniwaes...thruout de whole day,ppl kept wishing me hapi b'dae..hmmm...alll ma fwens above lar ar...den rashid..ben..erm...alar...oso dos peeps whom i dunno oso wish fer me..den fadzriddin wished me hapi b'dae on friday..whoa...actuali so much happened la tis past 5 days..oh yeah some teachers wished me tooo...loike ms mag foo...ahahaha..den dat day rite..k* offered ta buy fer mi da c.....u dirty-minded peeps out there noe what i mean lar ar..ahahaha...coz laR...it's juz a joke!lolz...den rite durin chemistry lesson rite some boys sittin at the back sang me a birthday song...de moment mr ramesh stepped out da music rm...den tuti jacq n jannah rite feigned dat dey forgot ma b'dae but surprises me after skool wif a starhub top-up card...gosh ppl...thaNKS...tis means a lotz fer mi..u ppl troubling yaself celebratin ma b'dae...aniwaes dat sat wenna out until late in the mornin...muahaha...i spent tym wif wx until ard 9:30 plus2..at nite...den spent tym with HIM...loz nuff said lar ar...aniwaes...gtg adios...

aLyssA kicked at 7/05/2004 09:57:00 AM

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Sunday, June 27, 2004

love is blind...but whud abt trust...

aloHa!!!actuali tis is gona b short..i ma at waheng's hse..naw...ma comp sucked man..so is the tellie line..aniwaez..tis is de update of ma life..i broke up wif hafidz...but i ma goin out wif his bro...nice huh?!well...so mani things happen to mi tis june hols..loike kinda open ma eyes loike dat lar...ppl i can trust n ppl i cant trust...wel..i gtg naw..will update soon...adios..take care peeps...

p.s tml sch is re openin...cant wait to seee mr low n all...yeah...loike as if...dream on..hahaz..

aLyssA kicked at 6/27/2004 05:43:00 PM

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Tuesday, May 18, 2004

aloha!wel..mi gota rush sUmwhr fer naw..haiz..ma lil cuz wana g0 out..n she's onli 1 yr plus..haiz..wEl juz wana ask if any1 called mi..coz i got a private no. callin ma hp y'dae whilst i was sleepin..was in a dream n den woke up..n simultaneously da hp rang..ahaha..psychic..seyz..even in ma dreams..lolz..hey wait..private no. callin..wait ar..ok..geez..wel jannah juz called mi tellin mi dat she was in school..okies promised ta meet her @ yP..gotta go..ouh..sowie suria..bring ya out next tym..aniwaes tml last exam paper..woohoo..!!yiPpee!!gtg....adios..

aLyssA kicked at 5/18/2004 12:40:00 PM

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Sunday, May 16, 2004

..powerful emotions wield terrifying force..

heCk!whuD a daY today..*sighs*..goddamn exhaUsted..haD a l0o0ng daE..oh boi!whud a day..yuPz..wEl aniwaEs..was soooper bored taday..soo decided ta chill @ starbucks..alonez..wEl mommy gaf mi $$ taday..[thks mommy..lerf ya..]ahaha..wEl she n0es i was goin crazee n wEl understands dat i nd ta go ouT n enj0y maself..after whud telah hapeN..s00..i gaf hEr 1 biG kiss oun her cheek n a bIG hug..[thks mommy...fer understandin..]s0 i wenna ma r0om..changed into tis nice top i recentli bot..sooper nice..n a denim skirt..n ma sling bag..wif al ma bks inside..ahaha..[okie2 1 bk..but stil..]aniwaes..put on sum eyeliner..n eyeshadow..plus lip gloss..ma c.L n off i go..kissed ma mom gdbye..duno which starbucks ta go..but in da end ar nvm..aniwaes..ahaha..wEl ordered cappucino..al in al abt 2 cups..c0z i lerf em..[dammit]den tried tis iced Caramel Macchiato or sumtink loike dat lar..kinda nice..it's Espresso, milk and vanilla over ice,
and topped with real caramel..yUmmy..aniwaes studied in there fer 3 hrs.lolz..n den bot  hot chocolate..c0z i was gettin brain n noze freeze..lolz..ya noe..thinkin abt tis makes ma mouth water..ahaha..weL..while studyin in n isolated corner of starbucks..guess hu i saw..okiEs okies..guess hU creEps up behind mi?*sighs*naw..not hafidz..i wish..ahaha..bUt his bro..!!wh0a!was kinda shock..@ 1st i t0t was hafidz..almoz jumped onto him..ahaha..but luckily saw dat dyed hair..ditto hafidz..ya noe dey reali look wel..kinda alike..[duh!whuds da matter wif ya gerl?dey r BR0THERS?!*rolls eyes*]wEl..he asked mi if he can join mi..i said wel..b ma guest..hey!whud m i spose ta say?!no!goaway?!dats crazee..besides i used to haf da hots fer him..sheeheesh..aniwaes..he was alone..so was i..he's juz a boi n i ma juz a gerl can i make it any obvious?ahaha..wEl we toked a lil' coz..kinda awkward..tis is how da convo goes..
hiM:[hesitantly]weL heRd abt u n ma br0..sowie abt dat..
mE:ouH yar..i gueSS u heRd from hiM ya..bah it's ok..
hiM:erm..not exactly..wEl aniwaes if u nd a shoulder to cry oun..hey ring mi..[smiLes..]
mE:ouh yar..erm..suRez..thks..*blush*[he's soo hot..dat smile..cuteness..ahaha..whud da heck..i ma free woman naw kayz..]
hiM:so tgh blajar kepe..?rajin sey..haha..
mE:yeSh..u haf a prob wif dat?[actEd angry..raised chin..]
hiM:[laughs]nopez..none at al..jUz weird cya here.alone.tgh blajar.haha.
mE:tel mi abt it..haiz..self-depression..haha..
hiM:s0oo dah lame pat sini..?
mE:[looked at ma watch]..abt 3hrs 45 mins 56 secs i guess..
hiM:hahahaha..waahh..i tink u nd a break..studyin loike tis is not gd ya noe..[den he packs da things dat was strewn oun da table in2 ma bag..]
mE:[shocked beyond control]watcha doin?
hiM:wEl packin ya things..asal?got a prob wif dat?[he winked]
mE:[tutop mulot terngahngah]..as a matter of fact i do..
hiM:[laughs]..dat al ya things?let's go..
mE:go!?go where?
he juz kept quiet n wel went ahead..geez..i juz stood rooted n den ran after him..dat guy is soo madness..but hot..ahaha..wEl..aniwaes we took da train to paya lebar..n weL chilled thr..he was a real gentleman..gawd..we wen ard dis place duno whud lar..den he's soo sweet..accompanied mi "shopping" ahaha..at this fashion..wEl i fell in love wif tis skirt..a denim 1 wif a belt..he told mi to try it oun..but i haf doubts abt it..wel..he took da skirt n pushed mi ta da changin rm..took a no..n waited fer mi whilst i change..den i went out..n he said huh?did u try it oun n i said yea..n he said he wana c mi wearin it..n i was loike bdk nie..nasib baik lah kau abg hafidz..ahaha..kalau tak..wel..i grritted ma teeth n felt bad whilst changin..here he was tryin ta cheer mi up n there i m not appreciating it..haiz..i changed n got out..he said it looks gr8 oun mi..[yar rite..hu u kidding?]ahaha..but nonetheless i was flattered..muffled a thks n changed bac..den i was loike wana buy da skirt but short oun cash..n he was loike al gentleman n paid fer mi..whoa..kewlness..thks man..ahaha..tak tau malu..den i bot a sunglass fer maself..nice shade..of colour..n den we had dinner..den after dat went to np..i bot fer ma mom kFc..i noe she kemponan it..ahaha..u r welcum mommy..lolz..den after dat was gettin kinda late..soo we went home..he walked mi ta ma stairs..c0z ma unc got nite shift..ahaha..takin advantage..no la..juz jk..den thanked him fer a nice day..enjoyed it..thanked him again fer cheerin me up..den i herd ma front gate openin n dats ma cue to go home..he said welcome..den we smiled at each other n went home.fullstop.phew.okiEs..wen i went ta change ta sleep folks..i was smilin n whistling..haiz..was grinnin from ear ta ear..had a gr8 tym taday..haiz..thks man..u r da bez..i owe u 1..ouh wait..i got an sms..wait kayz..ouh..it's from him..wishing mi gdnite..oh..aint dat sweet?does evribodi tinks dats sweet?ahaha..okies okies..i noe i noe..aniwaes dats ma cue..i gtg..adios..



aLyssA kicked at 5/16/2004 08:35:00 PM

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Friday, May 14, 2004

LoVe is bLind...bUt whUd abt trUst..?


aLoha!!w0w..hmmm..it's biN 6 daYs..2hrs..5 mins since i lasT bl0g..[riTe?!]..ahaha..i duno..matHs faiL..ahaha[aniwaEs..d0s nos. camE randomli to ma head..ahaha..]wEl..s0 much has biN happenin in ma life since i last blog..pHEw!today's finaLi fridaE!yay!tym to rez..Yay!..haF biN feeLin sleepi n tired n crappy tis last few daYs..ahaha..wEl..i ma teEnager..n haf to accept al da packaGes that comes along wif bein a teeNager..wEL..aniwaEs mE n ma Fwens..weL ouR relaTionship's ok..bUt da trust is especiali not thr yet..esp mi..sowie guys..*sighs*i duno y our friendship is alwis on da rocks..but dat mon..j wenna to me n apologised fer her harsh letter..i said naymind tis ok..she explained dat da letter she gaf mi was actuali not meant fer mi..she said tt itz c0z she was angry @ sum1 ese n haf ta vent her anger oun me..aniwaes we realized n noe hu r da culprits hu r tryin to ruin da 3 of us friendship..n weL we r sorta plottin sumtink to wel..u noe..teach em..ahaha..*winks*i noe al of u will go..stoopiD!y tel da whole werld ur plan..ouh..dats coz we oreadi plotted against dat duos..ahaha..wel we r in da act naw..ahaha..wEl..*rolls eyes*..aniwaes i ma fightin wif da demon inside me..ahaha..dUn wEri it's jUz a figurative expression..wEl..actuali rite..taday..i m dwellin oun da tot of whether i comply wif wat ma daddy 1s..or follow ma dreams..after al these yrs..n he came bac dat sun..sayin I'M his DAUGHTER..n he has big plans fer ma future..ya rite*rolls eyes* he wana me to study overseas after ma os..no way jose..juz wana sae..i haf big plans fer ma future too..n i haf painstakinly planned it al..it's flawless..it's MA future aniwaes not uRs..wEL daddy dearest..i dun nd uR $$ u n uR BIG plans[hands shot in the air] fer ma future..i aint gona b ur lawyer..or doctor..or whudever da hell..dos bigshot jobs..naw..ar-arh*shakes head*dos aint da jobs fer mi..i wud rather starve n not get ma allowance ever den b forced to do smth dat i DUN wana do..*hey..u go gerl..tel him..*s0 whud if u r tis "big shot" biznesman?!*rolls eyes* ur $$$ cant buy ma affections n love fer u..daddy dearez..i oreadi regarded u s a stranger..n din even call u daddy..i called ya by ya 1st name..argh..get out!c folks..dats whud i ma doin rite naw..he threatened not to gif mi ma allowance unlez i "succumb" to his "big plans"..sowie..BIG MISTAKE u did here daddy dearez..no 1 n i mean no 1 can force mi to do whud i dun wana do..not mummy not uncLe aZ n certainly noT U!*eyebrow shot up*..wel nuff said..aniwaes da hols comin n I m gona get a JOB..wiF out wiFout ur approval..wEl daddy dearez..i noe u wil b readin tis..s0on..make sure tis get in ur head kayz..?*smirks*

aLyssA kicked at 5/14/2004 07:45:00 PM

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LoVe is bLind...bUt whUd abt trUst..?


aLoha!!w0w..hmmm..it's biN 6 daYs..2hrs..5 mins since i lasT bl0g..[riTe?!]..ahaha..i duno..matHs faiL..ahaha[aniwaEs..d0s nos. camE randomli to ma head..ahaha..]wEl..s0 much has biN happenin in ma life since i last blog..pHEw!today's finaLi fridaE!yay!tym to rez..Yay!..haF biN feeLin sleepi n tired n crappy tis last few daYs..ahaha..wEl..i ma teEnager..n haf to accept al da packaGes that comes along wif bein a teeNager..wEL..aniwaEs mE n ma Fwens..weL ouR relaTionship's ok..bUt da trust is especiali not thr yet..esp mi..sowie guys..*sighs*i duno y our friendship is alwis on da rocks..but dat mon..j wenna to me n apologised fer her harsh letter..i said naymind tis ok..she explained dat da letter she gaf mi was actuali not meant fer mi..she said tt itz c0z she was angry @ sum1 ese n haf ta vent her anger oun me..aniwaes we realized n noe hu r da culprits hu r tryin to ruin da 3 of us friendship..n weL we r sorta plottin sumtink to wel..u noe..teach em..ahaha..*winks*i noe al of u will go..stoopiD!y tel da whole werld ur plan..ouh..dats coz we oreadi plotted against dat duos..ahaha..wel we r in da act naw..ahaha..wEl..*rolls eyes*..aniwaes i ma fightin wif da demon inside me..ahaha..dUn wEri it's jUz a figurative expression..wEl..actuali rite..taday..i m dwellin oun da tot of whether i comply wif wat ma daddy 1s..or follow ma dreams..after al these yrs..n he came bac dat sun..sayin I'M his DAUGHTER..n he has big plans fer ma future..ya rite*rolls eyes* he wana me to study overseas after ma os..no way jose..juz wana sae..i haf big plans fer ma future too..n i haf painstakinly planned it al..it's flawless..it's MA future aniwaes not uRs..wEL daddy dearest..i dun nd uR $$ u n uR BIG plans[hands shot in the air] fer ma future..i aint gona b ur lawyer..or doctor..or whudever da hell..dos bigshot jobs..naw..ar-arh*shakes head*dos aint da jobs fer mi..i wud rather starve n not get ma allowance ever den b forced to do smth dat i DUN wana do..*hey..u go gerl..tel him..*s0 whud if u r tis "big shot" biznesman?!*rolls eyes* ur $$$ cant buy ma affections n love fer u..daddy dearez..i oreadi regarded u s a stranger..n din even call u daddy..i called ya by ya 1st name..argh..get out!c folks..dats whud i ma doin rite naw..he threatened not to gif mi ma allowance unlez i "succumb" to his "big plans"..sowie..BIG MISTAKE u did here daddy dearez..no 1 n i mean no 1 can force mi to do whud i dun wana do..not mummy not uncLe aZ n certainly noT U!*eyebrow shot up*..wel nuff said..aniwaes da hols comin n I m gona get a JOB..wiF out wiFout ur approval..wEl daddy dearez..i noe u wil b readin tis..s0on..make sure tis get in ur head kayz..?*smirks*

aLyssA kicked at 5/14/2004 07:45:00 PM

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Saturday, May 08, 2004

hey ya..actuali..to tel ya da truth ma life suck rite naw..ya lotsa backstabbing..deceiving..hypocritisizing happenin ya..n SUM1 blaming mi 4 smth..tel u sumtink kaYz..WHUDEVER*rolls eyes*..i ma gD wif or wif out u..nuff said..wel heRe's smth original from mw it's TM n C kayz..hahaz..

Life sucked...wen u r not ard..
i feel empty lonely sad n lost
cant u juz realize dat i love u sooo...
what can i do to make u noe..
i cried to sleep almost everi nite..
thinkin abt u moz of da tym..
i'm lookin @ a picture in ma hand..
tryin ma bez to understand..
i reali wana noe whud we did wrong..
wif da love i felt so strong..
u cant imagine juz how much i pained..
juz so that u can b spared..
i duno y but i kept thinkin abt u..
hoping to get even a glimpse of u..
even as i'm writing tis down..
u'r da onli thing on ma mind..
u'r da last person i tot of b4 i sleep..
n da 1st one in the morning..
oh gawd!i wud kill 2c him again..
n to finali express ma true feeling fer him..
pls!pls!pls!gif me a chance..
to atone for ma stoopid past mistakes..
wen m i gona understand?
dat dat 1 chance has flown away..
i finali realized i was in da wrong..
oh!juz how stoopid i m..
to gif up smth oh so gd..?
smth precious..?
smth dear to ma heart..
what an arrogant bitch i am?
to not realize dat he's actuali da 1 4 me?
but regrettin naw is of no use..
i haf decided to make it true..
i will tel him da actual truth
of y i keep on pushing away
wen he's coming close..
it's actuali bcoz of da fact..
dat i ma afraid..
to get hurt all over again..

haiz..was crying wen i came up wif dat..duno y me so emo tis past few wks..wel aniwaes..ma mid-yr exams comin n some PPL was hopin to c da fall of mi..sowie guys..to disappoint ya al..but..it aint gona hapen..al dats gona change believe mi..

aniwaes gtg..adios..''<

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aLyssA kicked at 5/08/2004 08:11:00 PM

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